C! ♡ ,yes that's the name. Female, 15, Single(?)
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January 2010 February 2010 March 2010

Oh bastard.
I forgot to add.
If I go to hell I'm taking you with me.
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Tell me what's the point of life if nothing truly lasts forever.
Nothing is sustainable through the ages then why should I, myself, pursue after life?
What if I don't pursue it?
My life would be destroyed?
I would become homeless like those that live on the streets?
Let me confess,
The only reason I go to school is cause I don't want to lose to pathetic people like you.
Those that don't even try hard when your parents try their best to support you.
Those like you that takes things for granted and believe that you yourself am to blame for who you are in a good way of course.
But let me tell you a secret,
The reason you are who you are,
The reason you are reading this is because of your parents.

So you might as well kneel them and listen to them.
Fool.
Ass.
-Posted.
Burn my ass on fire.

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He said I love you.
I said stop lying.
He ran away.

I forgot how it felt to be happy.
Someone let me experience happiness once more won't you?

Done with life.
Can I end it now?
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你的离开是我的最痛苦经历之一。
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Through it all.
I hate to confess but I only truly loved two.
Liked one.
And for the rest,
I apologize.
I apologize for playing with your heart,
Your feelings,
Your all.

-Love truly lies.
Listen to my lies.
Sorry.

Three names.
Want to hear them?
Calvin,
Nicholas,
And Jonathan?
Shocking much?

I forgot to add.
My name was never Cheryl.

Ended.
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Last year,
On the ninetieth you kneel-ed down and asked me to marry you in the future.
And I jumped with joy and you put the ring on my finger.
I still remember.
Flashbacks.

And the reason I still love you is cause,
You were there when I was unwanted.
You were there when I was fat and ugly.
Just you were there.

Much love,
X

Labels: And for that I thank God for sending you into my life.

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I lost both my matches yesterday.
Sorry.
My glory, my victory its all yours,
But the failures are all mine.
And for that I apologize.

I still remember you said..
Long ago.
我不是你的王子。
Memories stay.

Yesterday,
I wanted to feel the pain,
I wanted to cry,
I wanted to let it all out.
I wanted to exhaust myself till where I reached a point where I would pass out.
But I couldn't..
They wouldn't let me.
Yesterday I woke up at 7 then went to do volunteer work till 2.
Ate lunch on the car went to some poly for my game.
Ended at 5.
Went home, wanted to run but my parents wouldn't let me cause I'm still sick afterall..
Showered.
Went out for dinner.

I'm sorry,
But I miss you.

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For tomorrow's match may the best win.
And friend,
There's really no reason to cry for me.
Love me or even care for me.
Move on.

All or nothing.
This victory, this glory its all yours.
It all goes to you and your love for me.

-X

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if i were to see you again i believe that my first words would be how are you? i missed you alot . and thn somehow somewhere you would say i missed you too. i dont know i realised lately that i really do like you alot alot . but i cant keep this going..maybe after a while of long huger for you i will thn really let go of this feeling for you. right now its so unstable i just want you more and more i know maybe right now you will hate me but i rather you hate me.. maaybe you are super pissed at me at the moment but.. i believe perhaps when everything comes to an end thn you will understand that maybe this is perhaps for the best.. im sorry for changing.. i really am.. if i could do anything to change back what you believe that i did wrong please tell me and thn i would change if just for you. maybe if we were together at some other time some other place.. everythingwould be possible.. maybe we wouldnt last forever but i believe the mainpoint is that once in our lives it consisted of having one another.. i just really hope that you take good care of your _______[: and i really just hope that .. take cares..

-bye .

That was me one year ago.
So much has changed.
For the bad..
So what if I made the tennis team.
So what if I was one of the four.
Its nothing compared with being without you.
Haven't heard from you in ages.
But all I know is one thing and that is,
Every single day,
I live with the pain,
I live with a scar,
To remind me that,
That fairytale was never a dream.
It happened,
And right now.

I'm still stuck in my nightmare.

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Since I won't be able to laugh much,
I'll make you laugh Nicholas.
There see that picture.
I know you will obviously at first think that I'm crazy,
Then start to scrutinize your eyes and realize my cropping skills suck but whatever.
At least at first you laughed(:
Heh well yesterday 15/2/2010
I went to Sentosa with my friends,
And yeah lie on the beach,
Chat whatever.
Thn there were so many indian workers
-.-
That kept staring.
Gah.
I know but I don't like okay?
Whatever.
Call me a spazz.
Anyways I'm ugly,
Maybe they're just staring at my friends.
AND THEY KEPT TAKING PICTURES
-.-
I'm not blind man.
What else there was this group of guys that asked my friends and I to take pictures with them.
And when I started to walk away to
"Get drinks"
They said "No! You must be in it too."
OMG NICHOLAS.
You should of been there to save me.
Too bad you weren't.
Whatever since there's only like one picture of you on your blog I stole it.
Sorry for the copyrights thing but I swear I couldn't find it anywhere.
So I stole it and then CHINA PHOTOSHOPPED IT!
Looks like we went to the beach together.
AND THE BREAD I'm EATTING IS NOT URINE BREAD.
Its green tea bread with red beans.
IT IS NOT BITTER(:
Tyvm.

Much love.
Super love,
X.

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Its not fun being me.
Its not fun being alive.
My life is twisted between lies and the truth.
At times,
No,
At all times,
I can't even differentiate between the truth and the lies.
What a failure I am.
I'm so useless.
Studies,
I'm always the last from my friends.
I try,
I really do,
But I fail.
Whats the use of being born into a privileged life if I can't even make the most out of it?
I'm such a failure.
I shouldn't even be human.

3/4 days its your birthday Nicholas.
Early Happy Birthday.
Thanks for these 3 years.
I guess you understand me.
Haven't talked to you in ages.
I wonder if you still come here.
I really do.
I wonder if you're watching me from behind my back.
Anyways,
This year is your O lvls right?
You can do it.
I know you can.

Nicholas Liau Zhen Wei,
Though you maybe one year older that doesn't mean you will be wiser,
Good luck with the road ahead.
I'm sure you will attract a lot of girls but I just hope you will always remember me at the strike of 12 midnight everyday.
'Cause..
I don't know,
Just promise me as a present won't you?
What else.
Last year someone told me you would talk about me randomly,
Out of the blue.
And once you said I was pretty.
Hah..
I've truly never dedicated anything to you.
So let the ugly picture above be dedicated to you.
Cause this time I truly have nothing more to give.

Forgive
To
Forget

-Posted.
With much love,
With much hatred,
For life.

X.

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Answer me one question.
Does perfection lie within make up?
Does it lie within Photoshop?
Does it?
Cause I'm sick.
I feel like giving up to these materialistic goods.
When I truly know..
Even when I put it on,
Its not the me.
The real me.
It only feels like me when I don't wear make up.
But..
Times are changing.
And my heart is thumping.
Trying to catch up with the pace society is moving in.
So.
Friend,
Foe.
This time,
Why won't you lead me?
Scold me.
Mock me.
Do whatever you want.

Just remind me of the pain.

In the dark.
Xoxo.
C.

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When it rains,
I'll be there with an umbrella.
When its sunny,
I'll fade into the background,
Watching from afar that you're happy.
When it seems like its the end,
I will come and remind you that it isn't.
That there is still hope.
And after seeing you being alright,
I would leave you and depart.
But.
When I feel that times aren't going too well for you I'll come back,
To cheer you up,
To amuse you,
To remind you not to cry,
Not to fear,
Not to be scared cause I'm here.

I know that I haven't said a lot about myself but.
Whatever the reason,
I won't ever regret knowing you.
And I won't let go of you, my good friend.
Cause I know once I let go,
Its gone.
And for now I can't bear to say goodbye but.

There will come a day,
When our friendship will fill my hunger,
My thirst,
My wants.

Let go of my hand.
Let go of all my worries,
And find a refuge for the night.

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I'll be there if you need 'kay?
Just a step away.
If you need me tell me,
Cause right now,
I've got two things on my mind,
Studies and tennis.

Kthnksbye.
Posted.

If you need me I'll be right there.
Swear.

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